Posted by: angelnorman | September 3, 2008

A few points to make while burning the midnight oil

1. Insomnia again tonight. Laundry is getting done though, so all is not lost.

2. Avatar: The Last Airbender is the best show I have ever seen in its entirety. I watched the finale tonight, and I cried. Like with tears. Actually, I’ve shed tears several times throughout the “books” (fancy name for seasons). I can’t believe that a cartoon could make me feel this way, but it has and I feel like a better person because I’ve seen this show. I’d tell you all to watch it, but then it’d get super popular and I’d be bummed out that it became all mainstream. So don’t watch it. Wait till the M. Night Shyamalananananan movie comes out in 2010 and THEN jump on the bandwagon so I can make fun of you for being behind the times, saying elitist stuff like, “Yeah, welcome to 4 years ago” and “Gah, Nicholas was in diapers when he realized how awesome Avatar was. Get with the program!” Don’t put it past me.

3. I am so glad I posted that blog last night, even though it seemed then to be against my better judgment (hence the reason I, like the coward that I’ve become, closed comments so that you guys couldn’t humiliate me publicly on my own blog.) I sort of felt like no one would get it, and that all comments would be, “Wow, you should really focus on all that good stuff you’ve been preaching this past week.” I know from an observer’s standpoint it could look as though I went from focusing on the good and relying solely on Blessings to shunning the good and claiming the Blessings were not enough. But that’s not at all how I feel. ‘Cause, see, I am focusing on the good and the blessings, but there’s this other stuff too that is called “depression” and I need to also work through that. I will be incomplete until I work through my junk, plain and simple. Most importantly, I need to be allowed to feel this way and to deal with it in my own time– to listen to my body and my heart, to be kind to myself, and to take one day at a time. And I’m so glad that so many of you mailed me and said, “Hey! You’re not alone! I’ve felt like that too and it’s perfectly natural!” I felt so much better today than I have in the past few days of being home. So thanks again, friends.

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Responses

  1. I can’t believe you already watched the finale. Gah. That was supposed to be our special family bonding time. Jerk. Now we need to lend the DVDs to Ems so she can be in the club.

  2. THAT”S RIGHT SISTERS. Hand ’em over.

    oh and, I love you.

  3. No way are you alone..Depression is everywhere! I hope you know if you ever need encouragement…I’m here. That’s what gets me through.

    Hope you have a good week.

  4. Oh, Angel. I read your blog from the other day. It made me so sad. I cannot say that I know how you felt when Nicholas was going to have surgery, but I did have the exact same thing, and when the docs tell you that you could have been sooo close to dying, well, that does freak one out!!! You are right, he is fine, and he is going to grow up to be great. Stuff like this just smacks you in the face and lets you know what is REALLY important in your life. I know this does change you, but this is something that brought your little family MUCH closer to each other. It did not happen accidentally…it surely was done for a reason. I hope that I am not butting in by writing this, I just want you to know that you are not alone. Judging by your comments from your friends, I would say that you are very LOVED!!! Hang in there!!!


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