A few points to make while burning the midnight oil

1. Insomnia again tonight. Laundry is getting done though, so all is not lost.

2. Avatar: The Last Airbender is the best show I have ever seen in its entirety. I watched the finale tonight, and I cried. Like with tears. Actually, I’ve shed tears several times throughout the “books” (fancy name for seasons). I can’t believe that a cartoon could make me feel this way, but it has and I feel like a better person because I’ve seen this show. I’d tell you all to watch it, but then it’d get super popular and I’d be bummed out that it became all mainstream. So don’t watch it. Wait till the M. Night Shyamalananananan movie comes out in 2010 and THEN jump on the bandwagon so I can make fun of you for being behind the times, saying elitist stuff like, “Yeah, welcome to 4 years ago” and “Gah, Nicholas was in diapers when he realized how awesome Avatar was. Get with the program!” Don’t put it past me.

3. I am so glad I posted that blog last night, even though it seemed then to be against my better judgment (hence the reason I, like the coward that I’ve become, closed comments so that you guys couldn’t humiliate me publicly on my own blog.) I sort of felt like no one would get it, and that all comments would be, “Wow, you should really focus on all that good stuff you’ve been preaching this past week.” I know from an observer’s standpoint it could look as though I went from focusing on the good and relying solely on Blessings to shunning the good and claiming the Blessings were not enough. But that’s not at all how I feel. ‘Cause, see, I am focusing on the good and the blessings, but there’s this other stuff too that is called “depression” and I need to also work through that. I will be incomplete until I work through my junk, plain and simple. Most importantly, I need to be allowed to feel this way and to deal with it in my own time– to listen to my body and my heart, to be kind to myself, and to take one day at a time. And I’m so glad that so many of you mailed me and said, “Hey! You’re not alone! I’ve felt like that too and it’s perfectly natural!” I felt so much better today than I have in the past few days of being home. So thanks again, friends.